CONGRATS COUSIN!!!!!!!!!

UR FINALLY FREEEEEEE!!!!!

aahhh the college life, are u excited?????

i know can't wait. ;D hahaha

ima miss u tho

<333 grace!

dude, ur party was effin INSANE!!!

i don't know how many times i told you this but HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!

so ya, whatever happened at ur birthday, dang. hahahaha BEST PARTY EVERRRR!!!!

and guess wat???

i've made up my mind. we can double date. why not. hahahaa

<3-grace!

BABY I WANT U TO BE MY ENTOURAGE ;D HAHAHAHAHAHAHA

u were pretty naughty, i'm not gonna lie. lolz

aww i love you melis. seriously, i don't know what i'd do without you. man, like u don't even know how much i love you. and no, this isn't my first. lol. but it sure is the worst.  that's okay. i'll be okay. i'm still breathing right???

I'M GONNA BE ALRIGHT.

IMA LIVE IT UP!!!!

lol.

THANK YOU for everything. i really appreciate it.

love you,

grace

grace,

im really sorry all this had to happen and u had to experience ur 1st real heartbreak. it hurts, but u gotta learn to be strong. take this as a growing experiece. ur only in high school, a million more other boys will come along, more heartbreaks to come. maybe you'll be the heartbreaker, maybe he will. but no matter what, u gotta move on with ur head up knowing that there's always something better waiting for u. i know it's hard, i know how it feels to try and hide it, believe me, i know. cry ur eyes out. tears are the sorrows leaving ur heart. but don't give up on the joys of life, because like u always sed, LIFE IS BEAUTIFUL. u have so many things going for u. and 1 heartbreak can't ruin everything. i'm here for u always. i love you. be happy! cuz when ur sad i'm sad.

<3-melis

IT SUCKS??? THATS ALL YOU COULD SAY???

yeah, it does suck. tell me something i don't know. you wanna talk about what sucks?  let's do it.

it sucks that you don't know. it sucks that you don't even realize how much it hurts to love someone and they don't give a shit. it sucks that you won't even take the time to understand me and just brush me off your shoulders as if i never mattered. it sucks that you think i'm being stupid and when you were being like this, i actually CARED. it sucks that things are falling apart with us and you are doing nothing about it. it sucks that i can't even kiss or hold you the same way because things have "died out". it sucks that what we once had all of asudden slipped through my fingers when i least expected it. IT SUX IT SUX IT SUX. it sucks that you won't TRUST me anymore when i say we could get through this together. it sucks that i pushed all of my friends away FOR YOU and now that you're gone, who do i have?  it sucks that our promises were destined to be broken and that our hearts are no longer one.

i never knew almost 1 year of being intimately and emotionally close to someone could mean nothing at the end. i put my trust in you. you promised to take care of my heart. thank you for letting it break into a million pieces. and maybe i did screw up, but i'm not the only one. a relationship can't be just one person working at it; you don't even try anymore. before none of this mattered. it wasn't a matter of pointing fingers and whose fault it was. because it was LOVE.

we've lost all hope and faith. now it's time to say goodbye. i wish you the best. maybe we'll run into each other in the future. and maybe that feeling will come back. and maybe our promises were really meant to be...

OMG COUSIN!!!

U KNO WUT I JUST NOTICED???

WE'VE HAD THIS THING FOR A YEAR!!!

OMG, WE'VE DONE IT!!!

<3-MELIS

I'M SORRY.

i wish  i could just SHOW you how truly sorry i am.

loving someone is tough, especially when outside forces are trying to screw things up for us. i wish i had the power to fix things and be like, "FUCK YOU ALL!" but i don't. =/ i wish things didn't happen so fast and all of a sudden stop so fast. i wish you could trust me again.... trust me enough to know that i'm trying my hardest to make things work between us and that no one compares to you. i wish you would just trust me enough to know that when i say " i love you" i really do mean it...

BLEH. =(

fuck everyone.

-GRACE.

Nobody is perfect. but then why do i find myself staring at a flawless angel when i look at you? now i'm sure there are more beautiful people in the world than just you.  but i think its the combination of your looks and personality that perfectly clash with mine that makes me see things differently. Now i'm sure you're not perfect, you're human. could it be true love that sees an imperfect person perfectly? you sure are the closest to perfect i've ever seen.

i am in a completely different world when i'm with you. as we sit together, just the two of us, our hands perfect intertwined and our bodies gently resting and fitting together like the puzzles of a jigsaw puzzle, you look deep into my eyes and i get lost. i am up in the sky. i am walking through a filed of clouds. i am sedated. it's this whole new utopian world consisting of just me and you. just being in your presence makes me smile. I feel as if i'm holding all of heaven in my arms. we don't even have to do anything except hold each other TIGHT, almost as if we were afraid to ever let go. and maybe someday we will grow our separate ways. but don't worry, YOU, my first love, will I ALWAYS be a part of me. you are pretty amazing if you are the only one that can make me feel like this... i love you.

we always want what we can't have. but i have you, and you're all i ever want. that is why this is too good to be true.  falling in love is a scary thought: giving your heart to someone and trusting them enough, knowing they have your life, all your thoughts and emtions, in the palm of their hands. will they take care of it? who knows. but i am willing to take that risk and find out... just for you. and you don't worry about your hear, i'm putting yours right next to mine and treating it as if it were my very own.

so here we go. these hour long conversations and holding hands are just the beginning. stay with me and we'll make it TOGETHER, i promise.

I LOVE YOU PETER PAN.

I'M HOME FOR CHRISTMAS!!!!!!!

<3-melis